Wednesday, November 28, 2012

The Collector

I am a collector.

I wish I could say that I was a collector of vintage jewelry, fine wines, or antique gadgets, but alas, it is not that glamorous.

I am a collector of auto-immune diseases.

I am now up to three.


If I were looking at the glass as half-full, I would say, "Well self, you have a good eye for collecting." (Only 1 good eye though. The other has a scar across the pupil. Kind of worthless. Except it balances my face out.)

Right now my half-full glass is lying on the kitchen floor, not shattered, but slightly chipped. I'm down, but not out.

Okay, a little out. The latest disease process requires a low-dose chemotherapy treatment. (I do NOT have cancer. Promise.)

Which makes me a little sick and tired.

The four pages that came with my "therapy" pills left my mind reeling with all of the warnings. All of which followed the first.

This product could cause death.

Anything that isn't death would fall into the glass is half-full category. At least for me.

I'm not looking for sympathy, I just felt the need to share why I've been a little absent from blog-land. Life is always busy, but now when I have a moment to relax, I do it behind closed eyelids. And with the Christmas season upon us, closing my eyes may be a luxury that will have to wait until the New Year.

Except by then, I plan on being completely healed.

Half-full, baby.

13 comments:

Stone Cottage Adventures said...

What an inspiring post. Glass half full! Thank you for reminding us that we get to choose for the glass to be half full! -Marci @ Stone Cottage Adventures

small farm girl said...

You have a great attitude. I'm not sure how I would act if I were in your shoes. I guess when you are faced with challenges like that, you find out what you true inner strength is. Good luck.

Carolyn said...

Keep up the good spirits. Good vibes and prayers going out to you from one of your blogging buddies (and her cats). :)

Candy C. said...

Well Crap! Rest all you can and take care of yourself! {{HUGS}}

Missy said...

I'm still going through testing to find out my 'issues'. Thanks for sharing. What helps me is saying over and over "ALL things work for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to His purposes." AND "He never puts on us more than we can bear." AND "Let Thy Food be Thy Medicine." < I've had to change what I was eating in order to improve my health. Love your blog. We'll keep each other in prayer.

Anonymous said...

my prayers are with you and your family.

Kris said...

Kim, I have missed you and your posts here. I am so sorry you have to go through yet one more obstacle. But you are very smart and know your body and what it can handle. AND you have all those wonderful kids and a great husband there that I'm sure are ready and willing to help all they can. So go ahead and close those eys for a bit and rest and heal.

Lisa {DoleValleyGirl} said...

Ah, my neighbor to the north, I was wondering where you've been... So sorry to hear of your current woe, and yet loving your cup-half-full mentality, sister! :) What an inspiration you are! Will keep you in my prayers, Kim. Blessings to you and yours,

Lisa

Heidi said...

Kim,
I've been off grid a lot myself lately, but I will be praying for you. I am also a collector of illnesses... I have had surgery to fight endometriosis, I have inflammatory tissue disease, hypoglycemia, and orthostatic hypotension. Like you, I am MORE than the sum of any old ailments. Keep plugging away sister. We farmgirls are pretty tough. Hugs from So-Cal.

Susan said...

Oy, I am so sorry to hear this. I am hoping and praying that this is one A/I illness that you can get behind you. I know that you are surrounded by a loving family and that's a great help. You're also surrounded by a loving blog family, so now you are doubly covered. Post when you can - we'll be thinking of you.

dr momi said...

will be praying!

Lady Hawke said...

Praying that the Holiday season does not overwelm you. Love ya and hope to see you soon. We will still be here when you return. You just get well.

~ Janis said...

I am in the same boat as you with a nasty auto-immunue disease, however I discovered the magic of kefir and many of my symptoms have been minimized. Especially the fatigue. You already have the jars and plastic cover caps to make kefir so perhaps you should look into it. Come visit the herd when you have a chance:
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